Bs.

Fuck it already. sorry i tried.

whoa.

holy shit..it’s occurred to me that it’s been nearly two months since i’ve been on here..tumblr please forgive me.

FML #43.

“That moment when you have to go to school, and as you’re about to walk out the door, your stomach kicks you in the ass and you feel like you have to make diarrhea. “
-anon.

eh, it applies to me somewhat… the few mornings i’ve woken up with my stomach feeling extremely sensitive. it sucks

the breaking point.

so. I have been in a relationship with the most wonderful woman in the world for 10 months. a few months ago i fucked up. I had made a bad decision, and acted as an A-typical guy. I saw how it broke her..and i had vowed to her and myself that i would change. I have been faithful to her and only her since that time. The thing that frustrates me however, is that despite having not done anything, Something always seems to inevitably happen whenever im happy, or she’s happy. All i want is a little reprieve, a god damn break from all the bs. is it so hard to be happy in life? can you simply not enjoy it without having some asshole try and screw it up or some event that threatens to separate you?

I love this woman with all of my heart, with every fiber of my being… but after what happened recently, i dont blame her for being reluctant to trust me. It’s frustrating as hell to me knowing that I, myself, did not do anything this time, yet everything still went wrong. All i wanna do is to honestly love her…to be the man she needs, to hold her in my arms and tell her everything’s going to be okay. The man that keeps her safe from danger.

there’s times where i feel downright disgusted with myself. i look in her eyes, and even though she may smile and laugh, i can see deep inside the wound hasn’t fully healed, and it’s all because of me. that’s the horrible part. I made my own girlfriend, who supports me in EVERYTHING, who watches out for me and cares about my health, who loves me for me, i made her doubt herself. and that’s something I know i did to myself…

The truth is, i can’t stand to be away from her…

I just wanna fucking be happy with my woman! is that so fucking hard!? Why the hell cant people leave us the HELL ALONE!!! i’ve HAD IT!.

Withdrawls

so, only now has it come to my attention that i have not been on tumblr in over a week. i must say, that is a record for me. I’ve missed the socially-awkward puns and randomness. I also know, a lot of you have probably seen those Joseph-Ducreux meme’s where lyrics are put into old english… i have stumbled upon quite a few entertaining ones and i will post them for your amusement now.

shit.

so, i’m sleeping… got about 9-10 hours of sleep…only to then get awoken by sheer heat. it sucks when you’re sleeping and you’re all comfortable then getting woken up by weather.. i mean, it’s one thing if someone wakes you up or the alarm goes off, but for some reason it’s more irritating when u wake up from sweat-drenched blankets and pillows… ew.

shiiiiittt